I miss you

It's cold here and I am feeling strange today. Stressed out to the max and wanting a boy. I simply don't know what I am doing with my life. Lately I have been thinking what if I don't go back to school here? I know the choice is up to me, but I feel like I will be letting so many people down. That people will be disappointed in me and I really hate that! Going home will help me calm down I hope. Matt Nathanson is playing right now and it is really calming. I really like his music. It is great. Right now I am doing breathing exercises right now because I am so stressed. I don't know what I am doing. I feel a little bit lost, like the path for the rest of my life is covered with leaves. I need to clean things up and figure things out.

Thanksgiving...

Is coming in less than a month! Which means I will be coming home in less than a month! Lets be excited. I am rather upset at the moment with my roommate Jordyn. I told you what happened last night and today I told her I was sorry for the way I reacted last night. She told me she was offended at how I reacted. Offended! She had no right to be offended! I did not say anything after they all sang to me. I was just upset so I simply did not speak for awhile. She had no right to be offended and it makes me angry that she would say that. Like me reacting the way I did was a horrible thing. I don't like it when people make a huge deal about my birthday in a public place, it makes me feel uneasy and want to just up and leave. Then they tried to make me feel dumb about being upset. Which made me even more upset. I am not happy at the moment at all! In fact if I could come home right now that would be amazing. So there is my rant for the moment. I feel much better now.

I printed out my flight info a little bit ago. It was so exciting. As I read over it there came a part saying I can exchange/change my ticket, which got me thinking.... Maybe I can change my ticket for me to fly back here on Saturday instead of on Friday. I am going to look into that and see if it would cost a lot of money to do so. Man I can't wait to come home! I am just anti things at the moment because lets be real my birthday is tomorrow and I try really hard to love that day, but for some reason it makes me so uneasy. Yuck Yuck Yuck. I am going to do my best to be happy all day tomorrow.

By the way I miss you a lot. Love you

We've been having weird weather.

I miss my brest friend so much. I wish I could send you Avila Beach with the Splash.. That would be magnificent! (It be even cooler if I could send It's A Grind.. the music there is awesome, and they have the yummiest drinks!)

Anyway, like I said before, the weather has been weird. It is sooo soo cold at night, like I've got my down blanket on my bed, and the flannel sheets, and normally during the winter I can sleep with my window open and those and be fine.. but holy crap, I wake up and I feel like an icicle! I should just close my window at night, but I don't want to. I have to have fresh air. And it's not like it's wide open, just an inch or so..

So anyway, it's really super cold until like 8 in the morning, then in 30 minutes to an hour, it gets HOT. It has been horrrribly hot lately. Like, yesterday, I wore my black jeans, gray 3/4 length sleeve shirt with my checkity plaid jumper (the one I got last year for Christmas/New Year's) and I was so cold walking to the bus. And then, after work, when I walked out side, I was like "HOLY CRAP! IT IS HOTTER THAN HELL, LITERALLY!"

Yes, I said that out loud while I was by myself walking through the parking lot outside Old Navy.

I want it to freakin rain already. I mean criminy, it is the middle of October and we have only had 1 day of rain. If you can even call it that. It rained at night, and barely sprinkled in the morning. By noon, it was blazing hot. I was so incredibly pissed. So was Kate.. she was really excited for the rain. I am ready for the rain. I don't even mind walking in it. It's so refreshing.

And listening to it rain is the best. Especially around 7 or 8 at night, and the street lights shining on the black, wet streets make everything look so sparkly :) And the cars driving by make that awesome "whooooooosh" sound as they drive through the puddly streets. Ahhhhh..... sorry. I just went of on a tangent. Here I am complaining about no rain, and hot heat (is there any other kind?) and you are in Idaho dealing with snow. Sad times.

Oh, this randomly popped into my head... but I think it is so amusing that NES has a song called "The Air We Breathe". HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Speaking of, I would love for you to go by the site and tell me what you think in the shout box :)

Well my friend, I have to go draw a bunch of things for my art midterm. Like.. tons of things. 27 sketches, 6-7 sketches of my hands, and some other huge projects. I am so behind :( Oh, and I have to do my math homework. LAME.

Idaho

It's colder here and I don't have my brest friend. I come home in a little over 11 weeks :). I could down the weeks to my roommates. They laugh at me, but I enjoy counting down. Today I was stressed out and I needed the beach to relax me. Instead of going to the beach I went to class... It was not the same but it did make me feel better. Homework is taking over my life and I have plenty of hours before me tonight. Although this is a great way to avoid homework. I miss you Sofran and when I come home we will spend the day in SLO and eat at yummy yummy Splash and lets not forget the yummy pesto bread :). It will be a grand return and then hopefully we will be able to work together.

What am I doing in Idaho?

Qshow

QSHOW hasn't even moved to

QSHOW hasn't even moved to idaho yet, and i already miss her. This is mondo sad... - Sofran